Sunday, November 13, 2016

Our Multi-layered World

Trying to resume some semblance of normalcy after the election results utterly altered our world. How does one begin to absorb what it means to have this person be our President and leader of the strongest nation on the planet? We still waken in the night full of angst and fear and dread. And yet, we rejoice that we live in California and on the full Pacific coast of our country that voted against this moment.

But here we are. Not sure yet what to do, how to proceed, what to expect. So, we do what we always do, we go for a walk. We try to clear our brains of this scattered thinking about things unknown, and focus on something else. Take one step at a time, one foot in front of the other and see something other than his face haunting our dreams.

A multi-layered world spread before us. It was as tall as the wavy clouds; as small the Wigeons and Coots with towers looming behind them; as vast as the shoreline and sky and all that in-between. We start to look for things that he cannot take from us.

We are learning this new world. We are brokenhearted and full of fear for the future, but we are learning. We will march and rally and protest and fight when needed. In the meantime, we will keep walking.

How are you?

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  1. I was just listening to Leonard Cohen's "Anthem". "Ring the bells that still can ring
    Forget your perfect offering
    There is a crack, a crack in everything
    That's how the light gets in."

    I'm coming around to that. "The bells that still can ring..." The birds, the mossy hills, the light over the water; they still ring.

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    1. Susannah-- Yes. We are coming around to that too. It has been an emotionally exhausting journey to now. Thank you for the link and for stopping by.

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    3. "While the killers in high places say their prayers out loud."

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  2. Here's the "Anthem": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BCS_MwkWzes

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  3. "We start to look for things that he cannot take from us."

    Thank you for letting us see the beauty of Arcata through your eyes. These photos are sublime.

    For nearly three whole days I was numb. On the third day I wept. Tonight I finished a mandala I started at the end of August. It contains a poem I wrote some time ago.

    Loving what Rosanne Cash wrote:

    "Rolling through Iowa, listening to Leonard Cohen 'Darker', in wonder and awe that we had such a man."

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    1. am-- We are still numb. I was awake for a while in the night wondering how we can secede. I want to live in a country that celebrates diversity in every way.

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  4. Ugh. I am still struggling. My despair is about what is happening with the people of this country - the divisions, the anger, the hurling insults, the inability to discuss with logic, decency, decorum. It pains me. It pains me to my core that this country will have a leader who represents all that, and it pains me to my core that there is a grouping within our society that thinks this is a-ok.

    Alas, for the moment...I'm still just stuck.

    I do really like that Leonard Cohen quote mentioned above by Susannah Anderson. "There is a crack, a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in." I will have to refer to that often.



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    1. Sharon-- I am still full of despair. I have been losing sleep over it. It pains me to my core as well. Still learning how to exhale.

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  5. I'm sad, angry, and sincerely wondering why so many people thought he was the better choice. But I'm still walking, too. We've been here before, we know what to do. I'm in Florida and for the first time I understand why.

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    1. Colette-- The interesting and sad truth about our country is that a candidate who received, at last count, 1.8 million more votes lost. We compensate for less populated states by making my vote meaningless. This is an utter tragedy. There's a reason those states have fewer people.

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    2. I actually had someone comment on a Facebook post about the electoral college that - he liked it the way it was because he didn't want all those California people deciding who should be president.

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  6. Remember what fear is-- False Expectations Appearing Real. Wait until something happens and that's time enough for fear. Ahead of that, it's wasted emotion since it might not ever happen. I know you guys don't watch the cable news but if you have been off and on, it's not healthy right now. They are feeding a frenzy. Rather sad actually.

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    1. Rain-- Not all fear is the same. I sat next to a stranger in a car who was going to sexually assault me. That was FEAR. It was real. I don't need to wait for something to happen to trust my instincts. We don't have cable/satellite TV. We never watch the news, but we read an actual newspaper.

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    2. That kind of fear is different. It's based on a physical reality. I can feel fear also when one of my cows is daring me or I hear an unusual noise outside my door.

      This right now is an anticipated reality. We don't know that Trump can do anything to destroy our lives. I've read the fear that those who voted for him did it based on bigotry etc. but they mostly don't know real Trump voters. Sure there are extremists. We are seeing them in Portland right now from the left. I just feel a lot of this he's going to destroy the world is way out there. Some are even claiming Nostradamus predicted him as the Antichrist to bring on the Apocalypse but you have to believe in a spiritual possibility for that to believe in it and it strikes me as a lot like the Mayan calendar fear. Why don't people wait and see what he'll do. I know he won't appoint justices I'll like but then the right knew that about her too. As I said, I voted for her but not out of fear-- heck I had equal concerns about what she'd do ;). Time will tell on him... unless the left manages to find a way to stop or kill him, which some are saying they want to do

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    3. Anticipated reality? Consider this:
      First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out—
      Because I was not a Socialist.

      Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out—
      Because I was not a Trade Unionist.

      Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out—
      Because I was not a Jew.

      Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me.

      Martin Niemöller: https://www.ushmm.org/wlc/en/article.php?ModuleId=10007392
      I know the kind of fear Robin has experienced. It is called terror and lies at the heart of every widowed government.

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    4. I hope you know the right had the identical fear for what the left would do with power. So that means no choice avoids fear. Stopping unfairness, speaking out for truth does not require fear. It requires caring.

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    5. Seriously? Identical fears? That we would discriminate against blacks, LGBTs, Muslims, Mexicans, brown-skinned anybodys, destroy the environment, give tax breaks to the most well-off among us? Really identical fears?

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    6. no, their fears were destruction of the country, tax increases that would hurt jobs, etc. etc. I meant that they had fear not the same ones. If you followed any right wing blogs, etc., you saw it. They think climate change is a hoax only perpetrated to get communism in place. I think fear is detrimental no matter who feels it. It blocks clear thinking. And one does not have to feel fear to know that Americans need to pay attention to what happens next. I am writing my own blog next on fear and why it's not a good place to be for reacting to what goes wrong... or might

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  7. Last night I met friends working with UNFCCC and while some are hopeful that China will become a major player in adapting to climate change (leaving the US economy behind along the way) they are all scared of the massive damage that even four years of US climate change denial will do to our planet.

    I slept badly and was woken by an urgent message from my daughter in NZ telling me that they had just experienced a massive earthquake and are now heading uphill due to tsunami warning.

    I know that these events are not connected but I feel very small right now. This planet is bigger than we can even start to fathom. We have no idea, we are all fools.

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    1. Sabine-- I know you know that you and I are on the same page about what even four years of climate change denial can do to the planet. This is what I am most heartbroken about. We have a vindictive and self-proclaimed revenge taker, and I live in a state that overwhelmingly voted against him. He can make life very miserable. I just read about the earthquake and tsunami. I hope all is okay for your daughter and everyone else there. Our planet, our one and only beautiful planet. For this I will march rally protest and FIGHT.

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  8. HAHAHAHAHAH you liberals are so stupid. Go get in your safe space. President Trump will be 100% better than obama ever was and 1000% better than criminal clinton might have been.

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    1. Chasing Vultures are you? Making nice with Buzzards?

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    2. Birdchaser-- Who are you? Why do come to our blog? We're total lefty hippie earth loving liberals. If you don't like us, why read us? I don't get your way of being.

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    3. hey coward... got a real name? what're you hiding? afraid to step into the light?

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    4. Yes, just an anonymous poor "winner"- pretty much to be expected.

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  9. I am listening to music, talking with friends, sometimes drinking a tad too many cocktails. The kids have been visiting and that's always a balm. I am not watching the news. And, finally, I'm going to the March in Washington DC with some awesome women friends. Yrsterday at the Farmers Mkt there was a contingent of young folk with great signs and banners of love and support. I had a great talk with them. They gave me hope.

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    1. I love that you are going to march. Take a big giant step for me!

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  10. I know your fears and how they seem to become especially soul grabbing in the dark. I use to wake up at night, go to the bathroom then back to sleep. No more. In the dark I work through all the possible scenarios. It has been daunting, exhausting and I can only hope that man is not what he sold himself as to get votes. All ready he is backing off a bit. Let's hope that continues. In the mean time we still have out vote and can send our emails to those in office on every issue that frightens us. Wish I lived closer to DC to join the march. Kudos to those who do. You are our heroes.

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    1. Arkansas Patti-- Last night I had such a great scenario worked out, words I was going to say, ideas about the future. But when I awoke, I realized there was nothing. I am just glad that I live on the west coast where sanity prevails. Take care.

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  11. Trying to keep the sensory experience we had in the Lost Palms Oasis in Joshua Tree NP in mind, and considering what productive actions I can take to use this enrrgy generated by anger; it's a cold civil war, when you know family members voted for the GOP. Not going to make nice, not going to reconcile with this lot. They never worked with Obama, they will continue to strip this country for parts.
    Lovely photos, as always, Robin Andrea.

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    1. isabelita-- It is a cold civil war, and I am worried that it will heat up. This is going to rock the world. Keep climbing! We'll keep walking. Glad you liked the photos. Thank you.

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  12. This time of the year has always been rough for me and now for the first time I'm starting to feel kind of small and alone. But I know it won't last. It's just grief. The next phase is anger. I'll await that with an open mind and get ready to embrace it with open arms as I know that with it will come strength. We've got a lot to do and we need to get busy.

    As for the haters that bought the Trump ticket hook line and sinker they don't quite get it yet that they are going down with the ship too. It's a bad time right now for ALL of us. Even Birdchaser.

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    1. Jill-- It's good to remember the stages of grief. We are walking that path together. And yes, it's going to get bad, and the ones who voted for him will have to make peace with themselves for what they have wrought.

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  13. These words from Beth Nielsen Chapman's song "There's A Light" echo some comments above and provide me some much needed comfort.

    >There's a light, there's a light in the darkness
    And the black of the night cannot harm us
    We can trust not to fear for our comfort is near
    There's a light, there's a light in the darkness


    It will rain it will rain in the desert
    In the cracks of the plain there's a treasure
    Like the thrust of the seed we will await we believe
    It will rain it will rain in the desert<

    Cathy
    Maryland

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    1. Cathy-- Thank you so much for these words. We all need to comfort each other through these times. It's a rough road ahead, but we all have each other help us get through.

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  14. Count us among the zombie-like folks wandering and wondering. DJT has said Mike Pence will handle domestic and foreign policy and Steve Bannon will set the agenda as White House Chief Strategist.

    Contrary to what one of your readers said so emphatically, we do have reason to fear. Plenty of reason. We don't need to know who DJT is, we know who Mike Pence and Steve Bannon are.

    And I don't for one moment believe that the right had identical fears for what the Democrats might do. It simply does not compute.

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    1. NCmountainwoman-- I wish we were neighbors so we could break bread and grieve together. We have plenty to fear, but I'm hoping that we all have the strength to endure what is coming.

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    2. I would love to break bread and grieve with you and Roger.

      And now Gwen Ifill has died. She and Leonard Cohen within a week of the awful election news. Just one more big kick in the ass from 2016.

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  15. I am still at the "burst into tears" place one minute followed by screaming angry words and questions with little warning. I cannot land on any stage of grief long enough to process anything. In the midst of this, 4 people I care about are dealing with cancer; 2 have been diagnosed as terminally ill and one entered hospice Friday. I am overwhelmed right now with sadness. My normal short fuse is hardly there now; I have zero patience with those who pretend they aren't a T supporter but clearly are on some level, small though it may be. I think much of the cover-up is due to shame RE the bigotry. The only chuckles I have found are in the Biden memes where Biden is plotting revenge and Obama is trying to rein him in.

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    1. Sky-- Such difficult times we are in, and then there is the personal pain and illness of friends and loved ones on top of that. I have found that walking helps me cope, and so I'm doing a lot of that. And yes to those Obama/Biden memes. They are absolutely helping me stay as sane as I can be. Take care.

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  16. Thank you for the lovely pictures. at a time like this we need all the positive energy we can get. I only hope the next 4 years go by quickly. My main fear like you is for the environment. Thanks again.

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  17. Anonymous--Thank you thank you. I'm so glad you liked the photos. We do need all the beauty and positive energy we can get. I do fear for the earth, and for that I will fight. Thank you for stopping by.

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  18. Very nice photos Robin!
    I'm still upset by what happened. More than Trump though, I'm worried about his "mentor" Steve Bannon, who is going to be equal in power to the White House Chief of staff. That man is far worse than Trump.

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    1. Pat-- Glad you liked the photos. Thank you. Oh yes, I am totally bummed out about Bannon. I am a brown-skinned non-practicing Jewish woman, and it suddenly does not feel safe to be me in my country. Sigh.

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  19. I commented on my own blog that every time I thought maybe things would be OK, something happens that makes me think it will be even worse. Even though Donald Trump is a habitual liar who lies even when there is no reason to, the best approach is to believe him when he says what he plans to do. One part of me wants to say, "go ahead, you fools, burn your own house down!" Unfortunately, the rest of us live in that house, too. It is truly a scary fact that people don't usually recognize when monumental changes are first starting to happen. This could be such a time.

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  20. I forgot to mention our regular Wednesday huevos rancheros lunch at our favorite Mexican restaurant the day after the election. We asked the waitress who she voted for. Many people might imagine that she's not a citizen, but she is. Of course we knew who she voted for. I said that I felt like a foreigner in my own country, especially because we live in a Trump community in a Trump state. After she left, I called her back to make sure she didn't misunderstand me, that I meant that the vote made me feel like an outsider. She understood.

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  21. Mark-- I have the very same feeling about wanting to say, "go ahead, you fools, burn your own house down." I know they're going to take us with them, but man I really want them to have an awakening. Maybe when they lose their Medicare they'll think, "Oh shit what have I done?" I like your story about the waitress. What a time we are about to enter.

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