Sunday, November 21, 2021

Changing The Subject

 I just had to make the previous post stop being the most recent post on the blog. Ugh. I was as sick of it as I am of being a neighbor to that house. Ugh. 

So in the interest of just showing you something different, here is a photo my twin brother took the other day in his neck of the woods in Santa Cruz.


My siblings know the sights I love. This is such a beautiful display of crepuscular rays at Schwan Lake. It does my heart good to know that this beauty radiates everywhere. 

We heard some sad news the other day. A high school friend, my brother's first true girlfriend, someone we hung out with in the late 1960s, who spent lots of time with us after school, that person committed suicide in March. I was friends with her on Facebook. She didn't post much, and when she did it was almost always links to music. Just a few days ago Facebook told me it was her birthday. I didn't write on her wall to send her good birthday cheer. I wish I had, even though by then she was already gone eight months. Her suicide made me think of this song. So, here's a song in memory of Susan.


23 comments:

  1. Love those rays. Almost spiritual.
    So sorry to hear about your high school friend. Suicide is so hard to understand. It hurt so to think their life got so unbearable that was their only choice.

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    1. Patti-- I loved that my brother saw that and photographed it.
      It was such sad news to learn of Susan's death. I wish she had found another way to handle her pain.

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    2. Arkansas Patti - suicide is very easy to understand. Anyone who has experienced unbearable pain knows. It is what you do when the pain and anguish of living outweighs the fear of death.

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  2. Gorgeous photo. Sad about your friend.

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    1. ellen-- Glad you liked that photo. And yes, sad news.

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  3. I'm sorry for the loss of your friend. It's a very difficult time when someone takes their own life.

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  4. Your brother's beautiful photo has a healing quality in the midst of the sad news that a friend took her life last March. Jackson Browne's song honors the life of your friend who clearly loved and wanted to share music. Sending love.

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    1. am-- Yes, his beautiful photo does have a healing quality. I am so glad he shared that before we heard the very sad news.

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  5. Robin you post the most amazing music. Thankyou for another gem. Sorry about your friend.

    Suicide is very easy to understand. Anyone who has experienced unbearable pain knows. It is what you do when the pain and anguish of living outweighs the fear of death.

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    1. Dr Michelle-- I've been listening to Jackson Browne since the very early 1970s. He's a wonderful singer-songwriter. I've seen him in concert a few times. One of my most favorite musicians.
      My sister's partner committed suicide in 2014. We watched from afar how his pain and anguish overtook everything else.

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  6. I am sorry your friend committed suicide. My daughter had a close co-worker commit suicide a week ago and he was only 33. He couldn't ask for help with his depression, trying to hide it instead, and left his friends, family and fiance in shock and sadness.

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    1. EllenD-- I hadn't seen Susan in so many, many years. But we did reconnect on Facebook, and she reached out to my sister and twin brother. Then time and distance took over. I am so sorry for the family and friends who lost this young man, your daughter's co-worker. Suicide is just so hard, so sudden, so final. Heartbreaking.

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  7. (I don't think "crepuscular" is the word you want.)

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  8. I had not listened to this song for some time. He is a brilliant songwriter. So sad about Susan.

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    1. Tara-- It's a beautiful song and seemed so right for this sad moment.

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  9. Suicide is often oversimplified as a case of someone wishing to draw attention to themselves. For a variety of reasons. But the fact is, it works. We may accept death from natural causes, rationalising it this way and that (Perhaps it was a mercy... At that age... She/he took it well...) but suicide brings the still-living acquaintance to an abrupt halt. We find ourselves attempting the impossible: re-creating the final thoughts. At what stage - particularly if there's torment - does oblivion win out over an imperfect life? Is it a calming revelation? Were there any doubts when it was too late? Self-inflicted death is available to all of us but most shrink away from it. The implications are too remote, almost too cool. We may even be gripped by the remnants and superstititions of religion: might the suicidee be punished?

    Finally we ask: is our reaction what the suicidee was looking for?

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    1. Roderick-- I have to say I have never thought of suicide as a way of bring attention to oneself. I have always thought it was a way of ending intense suffering, a suffering so profound that it overtakes all else until the final decision. I know two people who have ended their lives. I can safely say, their inner pain overrode all else, and a reaction by loved ones was not in their thoughts. If it had been, they may still be here.

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  10. Sorry about the loss of your friend. It seems for some it just becomes too much.

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    1. Catalyst-- Yes, it does sometimes become too much.

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